Humbled

Tonight I was reminded of a conversation I had on the phone with Nathan Smith (the founder of Love Africa) when discussing this position on Core Team. We had had a long talk and I just got to the point where all I could say was, “Nathan, I’m just so humbled by this opportunity. First off, y’all realize that I have never been to Kenya before, right?!?”. We talked and chuckled a little, and then I told him that I was at a point in my life where I have never felt so small. Not in the insecure in my identity sense like I struggled with when I was younger, but in the sense that I really do not have anything to give of my own strength. My role as an RA, as a friend, as a human really had led me to this point where I was humbled because I can try all I want to do things on my own, but I won’t get far. But in the midst of feeling so small, the Lord has never felt so big. I realized it was only through him and by him I can do anything.

I came to Kenya with hands empty. And being here, I see such deep and wide need and I want to fix it all but just can’t. Yet it is in this that I have to surrender that to the Lord and trust that though I have very little to give, he is much greater. I am confident that the Lord has brought me here for this season and I wait in excited expectations to the God who can do incredibly more then we can ever ask or imagine.

Tonight I was at a worship night at RVA and we came to the words,

In my life be lifted high

In our world be lifted high

In our love be lifted high

and I sing that as my prayer. That through, in and around all that we do we can bring glory and honor to Him who has allowed us to be here.